update

So i am ready to start this new life as a homeschooler. After much thought and prayer, I feel like the right decision is to homeschool my oldest. It was one of the hardest and deepest soul searching I've done in my life, but here goes......

Since we've made this decision I feel like God keeps reinforcing my decision. For example, the day we told McKenna this wave of peace and happiness came over her. She is back to being my happy and joyful daughter. The wave of tireness and depression have left her. This summer has been so happy for all of us. All of my friends can't wait to get the kids back in school and I've feel like they are just into the swing of summer and really enjoying eachother. Connor will be sad when Kate goes off to kindergarten two days a week and we'll be separated. Yes, Kate is going to go to t he public school for kindergarten. My DH feels like that is right for her right now. She really wants to experience this school thing, where McK knows what she is giving up. We will revisit our decisions at the end of the school year and go from there.

All I know is that there is this peace and joyfulness in my house and it's God's love that surrounds them all. If I "remain in him" it will all work out. I just have to put him above all and the rest of the priorities will line up.

Wish me luck!